Wanna run

i have a thought. I kinda wanna go back to a place i once called home. I have my children & gson here where i live except i have no drive to leave. I feel it will be the best thing for me but i dont feel i belong there anymore. I have lived here for 9 years & i am not happy but im not happy over where my family lives either. I want to find happy. I cant seem to find it for myself. I thought my marriage was happy but he shocked the heck outta a me. i dont feel as broken, beaten as i did when i started this site just a little nervous & scared. Ive always been put together & strong. This kicked me flat on my rear. Im slowly picking myself up but have no time to waste. I wanna say thank you to all who have read my blogs & have reached out to me. You have been a blessing that i needed. :)

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Comments (6)

  1. killingtime

    I don’t know. I think that maybe a big part of being happy is to be able to quickly put bad things behind you (shake them off as it were). Because I look at it that way I think a big part of unhappy tends to be people that obsess over the past or that can’t focus ahead because they are to focused behind.

    June 21, 2015
    1. showerstoflowers

      I hope I can start looking to the future (faster)& not worry so much bout it & I do agree with the obssession part of the past & I feel good that some of my failures have come to a hault & I don’t feel so bad, just know it wasn’t meant to be.

      June 21, 2015
      1. killingtime

        Ok, this is going to sound corny but here goes. I do look at life as a journey. Along the way we learn about all kind of stuff. Sometimes we make mistakes & other times we just glide through without getting hurt when we should have fallen flat on our faces. But the important point here is that you can’t focus on any one minute of that life or any one day. Instead you need to enjoy the journey as it flows around you. And hopefully one day you will realize that your right where you want to be & even with who you want to be, no make that, were made to be with. When that happens those rocky days along the way just don’t matter because they were all leading you to where you ended up.
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        For instance my divorce was pretty bad at the time (more like hell). But I wouldn’t have met my wife nor be where I’m at in life IF I hadn’t gone through it. Trust me, it turned out well worth it.

        June 21, 2015
        1. showerstoflowers

          Thank you, great advice! Happy that you found your wife. She must feel just as blessed about you as you are about her.

          June 21, 2015
  2. Hugh_Pizmehoff

    Maybe just stay where you’re at for now, prepare to move on, and when and if that time comes, you will be ready for it; and if it never comes, you haven’t lost anything. Sorry I am not more help, I have been single for so long, that it is easy for me to move quickly and effortlessly, provided I have the funds for the destination.

    June 22, 2015
    1. showerstoflowers

      You are help, you help me think things through again. It strengthens me. When you or any friend takes time to help me see the things i may have missed in my thoughts & you may have experienced more things to life than I have to grow. Thank you Thom

      June 22, 2015