Strange

Hi everyone! I have been really busy. Just working and texting some new friends. I want to be honest on here. I have put myself out there on a dating site but it's weird bc I get lots of perverts, weird-o's & lots of men that want just one thing. I have been there, done that & want to just find that someone like me. Not wanting those guys that come off so strong & than once you meet them they are so nervous, embarrassed, shy, but, they come across like they are hardcore, but, than well I have only met two guys. First one, NO WAY! He is so depressed. I know judging him is wrong but I am a depressed person & I am trying so hard to be a happy, funny, fun person to be with. I still text him bc I know what its like to feel alone & be alone. He has been a good friend 10% of the time but he is not the one. I know it's prolly gonna take me some time to find HIM, but, I hate that. I have always had a relationship, whether it be just sexual or more. Its so hard to be alone. I know I have this one friend that says she wish she had that. Well, once you have tasted the life of being with that ONE, the ONE, that was supposed to be there holding your hand. Its hard to try & replace it, on top of that feeling, its a hopeless thing I know but I do still love that man. Even though he did me crappy & I am terrified to be walking alone. I will be doing it so SOON!

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Comments (7)

  1. bluevader

    You know, I’ve never been tempted to try a dating site – not because I think the idea is bad, but more because I rather hope I will bump into a soulmate somewhere along the way when I least expect it…

    I suppose, in theory, men try it for all sorts of different reasons, and if you meet enough of them you are bound to find someone perfect for you, at some point in time.

    I’m a great believer that time alone is a very good thing – but then, I have to be, as I have time alone when the kids are not here – ! – but, honestly, I treasure the time I have to myself.

    I’ll probably never understand why so many people base their attractions / relationships on sex – it seems such a “thin” ice on which to stack all of ones hopes…

    Yes, of course I’d love to meet someone special, even more so now that I am one of the happiest and “at peace” people on the planet… but somehow I just cannot bring myself to force the issue by using a dating site – I think if it is meant to be then I will meet someone when I least expect it – knowing my luck, it will happen when I am unshaven and smelly and in a grumpy mood, or it’ll be someone whose car I crash into, or something odd like that – one never knows, perhaps one day I’ll go hot-air ballooning and fall in love with the instructor, or visit Greenland and meet someone on top of a big pile of snow…

    And – if I never meet someone else, well, then I still have my happiness and peace and children and friends and family and guitars

    August 02, 2015
    1. showerstoflowers

      I believe that you can meet someone randomly, but, I think in the meantime…why not…I never thought that ppl could be so weird…cr@zY…odd…I met my ex’s thru work, bf’s thru friends & going out…sooooo…I guess I can only say that it’s what is expected going on a dating site. I also do think it helps me cope w not being alone. I have this thing bout me…I don’t like to be alone. I have been a mom, #1 thing. I just haven’t been alone & I know ppl say that it’s prolly the best thing for me, myself & I.(yup I have that many personalities..haha) I wish I could meet someone the right way…thru friends, mutual friends but I think in the meantime…go w the flow & this is my flow at the moment. I’m sure it will change. I do have standards. I don’t want to meet weird-Os but thats whats happening to me right now. I’m sure I will stop soon talking to ppl on the site, it’s fun talking to ppl but not the weird ones.

      August 03, 2015
      1. angelwithin

        I look at it this way, if it is meant to be, it will be

        August 03, 2015
        1. showerstoflowers

          Haha. I didn’t see this but thats what I also said!!!!

          August 05, 2015
  2. Hugh_Pizmehoff
    Who is to say how you might meet someone . . . dating sites, work, grocery store, through friends, or maybe just a phone number written in a public toilet stall . . . j/k

    August 04, 2015
    1. angelwithin

      LOL

      August 04, 2015
    2. showerstoflowers

      Lol! You crack me up!

      August 05, 2015