Hi everyone! I have been really busy. Just working and texting some new friends. I want to be honest on here. I have put myself out there on a dating site but it's weird bc I get lots of perverts, weird-o's & lots of men that want just one thing. I have been there, done that & want to just find that someone like me. Not wanting those guys that come off so strong & than once you meet them they are so nervous, embarrassed, shy, but, they come across like they are hardcore, but, than well I have only met two guys. First one, NO WAY! He is so depressed. I know judging him is wrong but I am a depressed person & I am trying so hard to be a happy, funny, fun person to be with. I still text him bc I know what its like to feel alone & be alone. He has been a good friend 10% of the time but he is not the one. I know it's prolly gonna take me some time to find HIM, but, I hate that. I have always had a relationship, whether it be just sexual or more. Its so hard to be alone. I know I have this one friend that says she wish she had that. Well, once you have tasted the life of being with that ONE, the ONE, that was supposed to be there holding your hand. Its hard to try & replace it, on top of that feeling, its a hopeless thing I know but I do still love that man. Even though he did me crappy & I am terrified to be walking alone. I will be doing it so SOON!