Well, yesterday was a pretty good day! My son & I had some time together! It was great, I cook us dinner & we did laundry together. Yeah, maybe not exciting, but, it was a great time even though we did laundry. Well, another reason I am writing is bc after we did our laundry we decided to stop by the EX'S! Mistake!!!what I mean by that is that my son wanted to p/u his gun he left w him for protection(another story), but, anyway, as we pulled up there was a woman getting out of her car & taking in a gate, thinking was a dogggie gate. Well, I was so upset. I mean, I thought I was gonna be more upset. I was at first, the initial shock, someone else! my adrenaline started pumping. I was like surprised...I shouldn't of been, but, I was. I thought of getting outta my car, but, I decided against it. I stayed in my car. I just waited for my son to come back. So, he did & I was told by my son that my ex said I should of texted him. I was like Fk that! Fk him!(sorry for language) i was like, that MOFO, came by the house when I was there & just announced he was stopping by. NEVER ONCE did he ask me if he could stop BY!!! I never questioned it! I was like okay. I was always Ok w it. I mean, he came & went as he pleased even though there were times I didn't want him over. He would say he was picking up the mail & would let himself in. Never once thinking that I wanted my privacy! So, that's why I said FK HIM! I know it is his home, house what the fk ever!!! he never gave me the respect that he wants! Am I really wrong for being upset? I mean, I know it is a matter of respect, but, idk. Anyway, back to the adrenaline...I left it alone. I didn't text him, call him. Nothing! I'm so proud of myself for not going there. I still haven't said anything, he was pretty upset, IDC! I'm sure he iSn't over it! I am, I thought I was gonna fall apart when I saw someone w him,but, I didn't really see him w her. I just saw her there! i am cool, I mean I guess that is how you react when you see something you don't want to be, but, it is what ot is! I know that now, I actually texted a gf of mine & she was sad for me but, I wasn't!***to be continued*** sorry getting sleepy, have dentist appt tomorrow. Gotta get some ZZZzzz's. Good night to my amazing friend on here! I love you!!