I texted him this.
I tried to tell you it was the pills, which I know now it was. You thought it was you that had me down but I stopped taking them bc I didn't want something choking me. I tried to show you I was happy so you could see it wasn't you. I just wanted you to know that it had lots to being scared but thats life & normal feelings that one strong tough broad like me wasn't sure of. I wasn't sure of anything. Its a shame when things come to an end.