I always though when you are w someone that person makes you want to be a better person. I mean, I have pretty much always have felt that way. You are with someone bc you want a better life for yourself, but, also want it for someone else, that significant other.
Idk, guess call me crazY!
My mind is on a conversation I had today w my ex. Yeah, my dumb @$$ keeps trying to be his friend. Okay, today after my dentist appt., I text him, thinking okay. I'm happy. Feeling good even though had some drilling on my teeth. I continue to try and reach out to him, but, I just continue to feel bad, bc, he is rejecting me every-time I am making an effort to try to be his friend. Today, he clarified this much, he is not ready to be my friend, bc, he is fixing the house to rent/sell. I don't get that. What the heck does that have to do with a friendship? It makes no sense to me. I told him this. I just am a little happier w myself. I want to share that with him. I was so depressed before, that now, I am trying to be happy & share that with him he isn't ready. I'm trying yo STAY POSITIVE! Wtf, what am I missing? Hmm, I feel like something is wrong with me. Is that crazy?!?To just try to be his friend & he tells me I have started a new life w new apt, new job...I am in a new life & he is still fixing our old one. I was like wtf? Wth? Is there something wrong w me bc I was pushed into making this decision in getting an apt bc I have to live somewhere. I have to have a job to pay for my place I am living in. What is it that he is thinking that I have it so much better than him? I guess it is a good thing? I mean, he left me w ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! --0--
thanks guys/gals for listening to me! I love you ALL! Mwah!