Yes. It was him. I wake up this morning remembering a beautiful kiss that we gave each other (In my dream). I wish that he would come to his senses. I wish he could feel what my heart, mind, body & soul is feeling for him. What a pity, what a shame. Love is beautiful. Why doesn't he care? What happened to him? I dunno. I wish I did. I wish he would talk to me. I wish he knew. I guess this is true. My son told me. At least you have loved & he did love you back. I s it better to have loved? Or not? To feel the pain & to remember it so fresh when you think about it? I think not. I mean if you don't know it, you don't remember it. It isn't there. You don't think about the wishing, feeling, wanting, ache in your heart. It just is like umm, something that never existed. What a dream. Missing him still. I hope the new year brings something beautiful into my life again. This year was a terrible one.